I had some scheduled blog posts go public because I don’t know how to revert a scheduled post back into a draft. I also can’t compete a saved draft and not sure what to talk about even though I have 60 saved drafts. I’m writing this out of frustration. Plus, wordpress has been annoying lately and not understanding when I don’t want a bulleted list or when I want a numbered list. I guess this is was I have to deal with when I’m using a free blogging platform.
Anyways I was thinking about a lot of things just now. When you become an “adult” you start to think about too much. You wonder what job to get and if the path you’re on is the right one, what will make you enough money but not stress you out to death, you hope and wish for a lot of things for your future around age 16 to early 20’s. Sometimes you want those things now or sooner than the time you originally give yourself to achieve them. I just want some things now, because working for said things feel so far away and unreachable. It’s even harder when you have no one to help you or support you. Maybe the only people in your life don’t see you making a change so you start to believe them and this is the worst thing to do for yourself and your goals.
I will just turn this post into a song of the month post since I don’t want to be a negative nancy.
The song of the month is by Korean Singer, Jonghyun. He sadly passed away this week, and many of his fans are still grieving. I really love a few of his songs and won’t ever take them off my playlist’s since I can never get tired of them. This song, Blinking Game, especially. I couldn’t find an English and it’s in Spanish but hopefully some of you understand it. If not, I put down English lyrics below the video. Please give it a listen!

English Lyrics:
I don’t want you to put away your eyes
When you look at me
I wanna lock eyes with you and have a staring contest
My love, see yourself reflected in my eyes
So beautiful
Please don’t be shy
I want to place you in my eyes, just as you are
Sometimes, I’m afraid to fall asleep
What if I open my eyes to a different world?
Sometimes, I have these stupid thoughts
My love, see yourself reflected in my eyes
So beautiful
Please don’t be shy
I want to place you in my eyes, just as you are
No one knew we’d fall in love like this
You don’t even know how big my feelings are
Of course, of course my feelings are bigger
But you say you love me more
No I love you more
My love, see yourself reflected in my eyes
So beautiful
Please don’t be shy
I want to place you in my eyes, just as you are
My love, see yourself reflected in my eyes
So beautiful
Please don’t be shy
I want to place you in my eyes, just as you are
P.S
I hope you have a lovely Christmas with family loved ones, friends and pets. Or even just by yourself. ♡

Love Kiko

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